Death of a heartbeat

T’was mid summer’s noon

I lay thoughtless

Mind wandering into the depths

Of an empty lagoon

There I lay thinking

How deep have I sank?

Why does it hurt so deep  even now?

Tears tear you to pieces somehow

Or is this the price of being so frank?

I know not why I still care

Of all the things but this one

That left me behind bare

That made me do things that

I’d otherwise not dare

Lost in pain

Frozen by time

Memories I’d rather not explain

Fighting to be sane

Faded by dreams that were once mine

Drowned by hope that was meant to shine

I hold on,

To every tear I’ve cried myself to sleep

To every thought I did sigh

To every song I tried not to weep

Wishing I’d rather die

And yet,

Hope is what I hope for

In every word spoken so far

Beyond this agony that slowly kills

A heart that beats for you still

So vulnerable that it hides

Beneath an invincible veil, I confide

Lost for words to express

What’s more than a feeling

That I now confess

With legs bent kneeling

Here I lay my heart on the line

A pounding heartbeat on this barren land

That’s no longer truly mine

Until ‘My wish is your command!’